I don't have any questions but I was forced to go to rock point for a few months a few years after my TTI experience and I just want to send some love and support your way. I believe you and I have faith that things can improve. What kind of counseling have you tried? If you want I can share some of what approaches I've found helpful vs unhelpful but obviously so much is individual, so what has helped me might not help you etc.

When I was there a decade+ ago, there weren't really any violent students at that time, but the staff was awful to me and it led to me having some major mental health crises. I remember being on one of the phones (not sure if this was the case when you were there but there were only landline phones and we weren't allowed cell phones or allowed computer use for anything other than schoolwork) with my mom who hadn't been part of forcing me to go and just having a complete meltdown where I couldn't stop hysterically crying because the staff kept saying things like "you don't act like you've been abused" and implying I was lying and being awful. The staff's response was to punish me for being on the phone too long and being too loud because of crying, hah.

I later found out that the way they treated me was likely because they were listening to my father, who I literally had a restraining order against DUE TO ABUSE, instead of listening to me or my mother. I got sent because my father had been paying my guardian ad litem on the side (didn't find out that until years later either) and he convinced her to send me either to rock point or another TTI RTC or Wilderness and I thought rock point would be better out of the options. I got "lucky" because I had a heart rhythm issue that Rock Point decided to ignore instead of getting medical evaluation and again implied I was lying and tried to force me to do cardio when I was having unexplained resting heart rates in the 140s. Because I could talk to my mom without the calls being actively monitored she was able to get me out with the help of a lawyer, otherwise I assume I would have been stuck there since my father had influence over the GAL.