About sex with hot guys I see , work ,why can’t I make friends . Why am I not busier at work , why am I not appreciated. How much I wish I was dead .day dreaming what it would be like to have the money to do whatever I wanted. How much I want to run my x over with my vehicle .why am I alone . Are the laser treatments going to get rid of my hooded eyelids or am I going to have to have surgery ,why do I even try to look good when no one sees me .why doesn’t anyone care about me . Why am I even here . How much I hate being alive .what is wrong with me,why can’t I just be grateful for my life which is actually not bad I just am so incredibly lonely I’d rather not wake up .