What are you dealing with at the moment that you dont want others in your life to know about?

Oh you have access in person...dial 911 and tell them you are suicidal and they will come and pick you up. You will not get out for a while though, but what do you care if you feel you have no future? You will get enough drugs that you won't even remember what all your pain is even about and cared for until you have reached a stable point.

I've been picked up on a 5150 before...liked it so much I stayed a while. Met lots of nice people like you, except further along; they had already tried one way or another and lived to see another day.

One slit his wrists and then changed his mind calling for help. Another got drugged up and got in his car, but survived the accident. There was a young girl so messed up that she would not even talk...let alone talk about the horror she went through, I think she took pills and her parents found her. Another was found in time unconscious inside a garage with his car running. Those were the common methods...I had a neighbor who successfully did the garage thing, but he was terminally ill...which is the only semi-valid excuse, but not something I would do. All the survivors were happy to still be alive and most were driven to the point of self destruction by a relationship gone bad. I consider sour relationships to be the very worst excuse to cause personal harm, because with time...we are all able to move on.

Me, I did not try suicide, I was just put away for being a danger to myself. Not a fun chapter in MY book...and yes, it was a failed relationship that caused me to pine away and stop eating for lack of appetite. When I got out, I immediately moved 2,000 miles away and started a new life from scratch. I've finally found a new partner and we have been happy for several years. Ironically, her husband in a moment of despair, shot himself before I came into her life. So sad for the family he left behind. When choosing between life or death...I have chosen life. Past pains are a mere footnote in my life now.

The one thing you have not tried is to keep writing chapters in your book waiting for a good one to finally show up. That is the advice I have been repeating and the one thing you seem unwilling to do. Instead, you reach out to strangers to condone your goal or to at least give you attention. Nobody but you can decide to continue writing your book. All we can do is tell you there is hope for a better future. It is up to you to believe that.

I hope you make the wise decision to write more chapters to your story.

Good Night!

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