What are you losing passion in?

Law school. The pursuit of becoming a lawyer, having a hand in the practice/development of the law, and working with real people and real stories is still enticing. But 2 years in law school has taught me that this is truly the least exciting, least stimulating and least intellectually enjoyable version of graduate school around. Seriously, I appreciate that this 3 year long critical thinking exercise has shaped, is shaping, and will continue to shape my ability to analyze the world around me, but facts are facts: The material is boring and many quality law schools cater to business-oriented law, which you slowly learn is just wealthy folks suing other wealthy folks. I have a good best friend and a good girlfriend, but otherwise it seems that everybody around me is fucking crazy. The gunners are all overly ambitious assholes who want to be successful for the sake of success and power, not for the sake of a greater good. There's loads of people who obviously didn't fit in socially in college and they're trying to make law school into some sort of second-chance at being cool, which fails miserably in part due to their original personality flaws and in part to the fact that law school just simply isn't a cool environment. Many people are mean, many people are judgmental, many people are ambitious, few people are who I want to sit down and have a beer with. Professors are completely unrelatable and unapproachable, for the most part, because their THE SAME GUNNER ASSHOLES as the ones around me, except they're thirty years older and went to a T-14 instead of just a "lowly" top-50 school like I do (further contributing to their general shittyness - had a prof. last year tell our small section before exams "none of you will ever be professors and none of you will ever be judges").

Maybe the worst thing, however, is that I haven't been able to find a legal field that really gets my dick hard. I suppose that's ok, I'm still in school and I have time, but I'm terrified of waking up at 35 and feeling nothing about the work I do. Early in the semester, instead of doing my work, I'll spend hours reading my New Yorker subscription and books on political theory and economics, watching immense amounts of college football (including every one of my alma mater's games) and trying to do some creative writing. Yet, despite my malaise, I can still ride the fat part of the curve, which makes all of this seem even more pointless. In college I wanted to get a Ph.D. and study political theory, to write about and embrace my own ideas on political economy and theory. My major GPA was a 3.8 - evidence of my ability to excel in the study of politics. But with an overall GPA just barely scratching 3.5, I knew there was no way I could get into a worthwhile Ph.D. program. Between that reality and getting fucked over legally via some housing catastrophes, I decided law school would be more practical, make me more attractive to the working world and give me a shot at really changing the world and knowing my own rights. So now I'm sitting here, procrastinating for a fucking Labor Law final, writing this pathetic rant and completely unsure if all of these feelings natural or if I'm on a path towards hating my career. Such is life.

Over and out.

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