I quit smoking weed and doing recreational drugs for almost 2 years ago. I've been doing it kind of regularly since I was 16 and when I quit I was 24. Even though I was never addicted I chose it before everything else most of the time. I went to psytrance parties on the weekends where I found a new family of fucked up people I though I could relate to. My relationship to my family and my old friends changed without me noticing or caring.

When I was 22 I drank ayahuasca. Long story short - I realised who I had become and how my relationships had changed. After that I kind of tried to stop using but I didn't really want to. Another year went by and at some party I took too much cocaine mixed with some speed and other stuff. Something happened in my head, I still don't know what but I didn't come back to reality for half a week.

I had my own little beloved pharmacy and shit but I decided to throw all that shit away for good because I finally wanted to do it myself. It was so easy to do it too.

Life has been so much better since. I finished university, got my degree and everything. Started to hang out with my family again, started to do healthier things on the weekend and met a lot of new people. I felt for so many years that something was missing but I had everything here all along.