what are some not so obvious signs someone is depressed?

Reading this thread really made me realize that I have full blown depression. Like almost every little thing that’s mentioned here I experience daily.

I’ve tried reaching out for help here(on Reddit) and elsewhere but nothing really helps. One person I even gave my phone number on here and they check up on me every so often and while that feels good, it doesn’t actually help anything. I feel bad just saying that.

I want help, I want to feel like going to work and being with my son. I want to be a better person and move up in the world but all that seems impossible when I have no fucking energy or willpower.

Tbh I even started to take drugs again just to get thru. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t get fuckered up or anything but it’s almost a must if I’m going to have a good day and I refuse to take them when I’m going to be around my kid even tho it doesn’t change my behavior just my energy.

I hate it, bc it’s not me nor who I want to be. I know I could be the best dad and the best son, best brother, best shoulder to lean on for the ones that still count on me for some reason. But I can’t, I literally can NOT anymore. I’ve struggled with suicide before but I’ve already decided I’m not going to do that. But what option am I left with? Grit and bear it until this all wears off and life passes me by?

/r/AskReddit Thread