Oh gosh. Hypersensitivity to socializing, and self consciousness. If I’m ever out in public, my amígdala is absolutely in charge and has no idea what it’s doing. I feel like I’m tossed and tugged by all directions, specially if I’m in a closed space with a group of people, I’m just on fight or flight response. Ends up leaving me confused and anxious the whole time and it absolutely freezes me, leading to remarks from people which i absolutely deserve, being this naive and helpless specially at 24 years old.

I can’t leave my house out of fear of exposing how pathetic I really am. Perks of being sheltered for some many years, now I’m just lost, unfocused, miserable, lazy, and a coward.