What became of the 'weird' kid you went to school with?

There were amny weird kids at my school, I was one of them.

Not the worst though, I don't know what happened to that weirdo, funnily enough we were best friends when we were like 5.

I developed an unhealthily narcissistic attitude and am possibly a sociopath. I'm much better at socializing, but have become incredibly anti-social and irresponsible. I also suffer from substance abuse, weed for that matter. I just used up my last money for more.

But I am smart, and as I grew I learned about being social, but since I can't really empathize with most people, I go straight towards manipulating them to do what I want.

I recently was able to convince someone to give me more money than they had to, by simply lying, managed to have somebody else pay for my debts, emotionally manipulated a girl into sleeping with me, and that's only like recently. I lie all the time, about nearly everything, mostly because I'm ashamed about what I actually do and like.

I'm really inclined towards perversion of implicit social laws and have done things that many would deem inconsiderable, irresponsible and disgusting.

On the outside I look like a completely mentally stable, charismatic and social person, and in a way I also am, but being socially isolated in high school plus the fact I had a mother constantly in and out of rehab and a father who was barely present in my life whilst growing up, the fact that over all that I had barely nobody to talk to, that fucks you up big time.

I'm not sure if its sociopathy or Borderline Personality Disorder, I have various symptoms from both those, at one point I thought I had aspergers or autism, but technically it's all in the same spectrum.

I was weird in high school because I took jokes too far. "Oh yeah then we would expel him!" and I'd chime in "Then we would BEAT THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF HIM" put on a big grin and wait for laughs, only to be met with confused stares.

I could go on and on and on, so much shit has gone on in my life.

I like to be poetic about it in my head, I'm already so jaded and can't really care about anything already so I keep myself sane that way.

I'm going to a psychiatrist about this, don't worry.

Yes, I have killed/hurt small animals when I was a child, I didn't know better.

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