I was the kid that was a bit overweight, and it seemed like no one in the entire school shared my interests, which of course were computer games. I pretty much felt bullied and frozen out for twelve years of school, or at least that's what it feels like in retrospect. In college I fell deeply in love with a girl, pretty much the only girl to ever give me any attention. We liked pretty much all the same things. For the first time I dared to hope, that I'd finally have a physical bond with someone. Someone beyond a friend. We could chat for hours upon hours upon hours without missing a beat.

But I missed the signs, no matter how obvious they may have been. She mentioned a room-mate a couple of times during our talks but I didn't think much of it. Sounded like just a friend in my mind... So like a month of butterflies in my stomach, actually being happy and hopeful for once, crashed as I saw her text "Love you" and saw an engagement ring. I'm not sure how I had missed it, maybe because I was too focused on her. I had to excuse myself from class and vomit. Back to square one again... but worse, now I was essentially emotionally dependent on someone that made me so, so happy and miserable at the same time. It tore me down and I ended up in a deep depression. I went to therapy, and she was so supportive. More supportive than I could ever think a friend could be. Again, the huge emotional toll of getting so much support from a core reason you were breaking down...

We slowly drifted apart, she got married. One night we had a chat and she said she'd date me if she wasn't taken. Couldn't chat to her anymore. Only short periods. Now here I am, about 3 years later, still alone. Had to move back home, been trying to find a job for like a year, hopeless. I'm not sure I have a future at all. There's absolutely nothing to look forward to.

Tl;dr Forever alone thought his life could get better after a life of shit. Didn't happen.