Therapy time! Something small that probably has happened to a lot of people who have since gotten over it, but still bothers me greatly.
When I was 15ish, my 2 friends would drag me a few days a week to hang out of a large group of people that hung out at a cemetery. I never had an easy time of making friend (unless you were as weird as I was) and this group was no different. I smiled and was nice, but never really felt comfortable enough to break down the shy barrier.
After a few weeks, I started to sense that I wasn't very well-liked. People would make remarks towards me and just make me feel uncomfortable. I tried to hang out with my friends less, but they were insistent and I was a push-over.
One night I was adamant about not wanting to go, but I gave in and went anyway. A while after I got there, my friends and I were standing around when I feel a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and was sucker-punched in the face. I wasn't knocked out, but was very out-of-it.
After I realized what was going on, the group who jumped me stated that "that's what I get for talking shit" or something along those lines. I think that part insulted me the most, being someone who has never been the shit-talking type.
I lost 2 teeth and spent the entire night in the ER, getting the teeth put back in. I had to get a root canal done and almost 20 years later, I still have a nugget that sticks out of my lip where the swelling never fully went down.
My family wanted to press charges, but I didn't want to go along with it because I was afraid of how weak it would make me look. In hindsight, doing nothing at all was the weakest thing I could have done.
To this day it still makes me angry to think about. For the rest of my teenage years (and even early 20s) it turned me into a recluse. What little comfort I had around people I didn't trust was gone completely. And to this day I will NEVER turn around when people tap me on the shoulder - even when I know who it is.
I know it's a ridiculous to still hang on to this anger, but I can't make peace with it.
Tl;dr - was jumped