What did a crush do that made you immediately lose interest?

My ex of 6 months was an artistic/music genius, extremely attractive, hilarious, but a pure narcissist. Nothing but pure darkness in his veins..

It all started when our Art University female peers began telling me what an asshole he is when I’m not around and that there is something very off with him. I simply could not fully believe what they were saying and attributed it to jealousy.

Sure enough, as his drug use went out of control the following 4 months. It was apparent that he truly believed nothing mattered, he was a savant (which is true), everyone was a chess piece in his mind, had no fundamental ethics, and that the ends justify any means necessary. But the manor in which he would disclose this information was heartbreaking; stories of abuse, a need for control, and a desire for change.. I believed what he said and loved him regardless.

Then he became extremely manic and abusive; constantly berating me on how predictable and insecure I am. I broke up with him after he drove off from my place laughing hysterically at how meaningless the relationship had become.

Later that night, he professed his immense fear of abandonment that leads him to hurt the ones he loves. It was pure poetry coming from his mouth; and again, I believed him.. But I still needed space and he seemed empathetic/conscious that he fucked up..

I ended up getting really drunk and hooking up with a classmate (call him X) that my ex truly hated. I even recall him saying how he wanted to murder him for an inexplicable primal reason.. And sure enough, he was right; X raped me when I told him I didn’t want to have sex..

The next day, I see my ex and tell him that I had consensual sex with X. People saw us making out and he was going to find out regardless. I wasn’t ready to tell him about the X because I knew he would go insane and I wasn’t ready to press charges, it was all so overwhelming. My ex is totally okay with the experimentation and said he deserved it for how treated me...

Then later that night, he leaves me a voicemail telling me how insignificant my existence is and that I’m just a pretty face; nothing more, nothing less.. Having to deal with the rape and now this, I was so depressed.

Then my ex drives over the next night to my place and is totally high on some amphetamine; going crazy... Saying all the hurtful stuff you could imagine.

Then I breakdown and tell him about the rape... We are sitting his car and all is silent, he is in disbelief.. Then he drives off like a madman and I’m screaming at him to stop/let me out. He grabs me by the neck and said he wanted to kill me for lying to him; then the pulls over and throws me out on the sidewalk like a peace of meat..

Later that night; I find out that he messaged everyone in our uni that X had raped me and that I was too afraid to go to the police...

The rest is too painful to write out, but that is my story of true love devolving into absolute hatred..

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