You are not broken. You survived.

(I'm making an assumption here as BPD is often a consequence of childhood trauma and/or abuse.)

It is possible to move from survivor to thriving. I know that sounds like someone throwing meaningless platitudes through the interwebs at you. I'm not though. I do mean this because I am walking this journey too.

For a very long time I thought so many things from my past were dreams. Really horrible dreams but dreams. I had a chaotic teenage-hood and up to when I was 35 I was all over the place. Circumstances pushed me to getting help at that point for what happened to me as a child and adult. Things got better but I still had a lot of roller coaster rides.

The BPD though wasn't diagnosed until about 5 years later. At that point I finally got the right sort of help, with better medication, a psychologist who is awesome and DBT therapy.

It's now been 7 or so years since that time and I'm so much further along in my life than ever before and in an incredibly short space of time by comparison. I got a Uni diploma with a nearly perfect GPA. I went from only being able to work part time to full time. I pushed out of my comfort zone in the most major way and won promotions to supervisory positions. <- I couldn't previously have looked another person in the eye, let alone discuss poor performance!

I am focusing on my art and making time for me and my family in a way that I never was able to do so before.

I also took control of my life and for those in it, who did not respect that I was changing the way I looked at life ... well, I cut them lose. I am no longer doing the whole chaotic relationship merry go round any more. I now have the confidence and belief in myself to say hey, I deserve better.

It's not all perfect. There are still bad days. Sometimes bad weeks or rough months. But I have so much more strength and resilience now than I ever did.