What did you guys do this weekend?

Literally awake since fucking friday . Just filled my nose full with amphetamins and drank so much alcohol smoked weed all the time some ketamin too. Friday techno club, saturday techno club. All that shit made the anxietys so bad that on saturday at 3-4 in the morning i had kinda an nervous vreakdown cuz ma first love of my life broke up(first time ever happy) - (prob. Last time ever happy?) With me on friday so to not shoot myself in the fucking head i just took everything i could to fucking not think for a sec and it didnt really worked that well on saturday so i fuckibg sat saturday in that shitty techno club was just minding my own business kinda having slightly overdose of fucking all and then what do i see there the girl nd another dude kissing. I dont really remember that much after that but it was the worst feeling ever. Kinda had an nervous breakdown or whatever that shit is called then i was close before collapsing my heart switched between 45 and 150 bpm . Yeah so fml

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