I have pubis symphysis dysfunction without pregnancy that's led to arthritis in my hips, spine and pelvis and nerve damage to my legs. I can't have the PS repaired as my bones are too brittle to take the pins, so I basically now have a broken pelvis. I also have Degenerative Disc Disease, Fibromyalgia and PTSD. I basically spend the majority of my time in bed or on a huge cuddle chair in my bedroom. I'm on a smashing cocktail of drugs that I'm now basically addicted too and can't do much at all anymore. I have to use crutches and a wheelchair to get around, I have a stair lift and am waiting on my bathroom to be turned into a wet room. My husband is my saviour. He gave up his job to look after me and the kids full time. It's been 6 years since my last operation and in them years I have missed out on so much of my children's lives, they were also the last years of my mums life too. I live through my boys telling me about their days, friends, dreams, and life. And reading, I honestly think I would be more fucked up in my head if I didn't read. I'm s very lucky to have the support I do from my family and friends and I try not to moan about how shit and lonely and disgusting it all is because I know there are people in worse situations than me. Life is life, we have to get on with it. It's really hard, the pain is revolting, but we're tested for strength in this life and I think I'm absolutely fucking Rocky hard for living with it how I do. A smile, a thank you for what I have in life, and a new found respect to every person suffering with a disability or chronic illness.