What do you do when you’re too much for a therapist, yet you have unhealed childhood trauma and severe feelings of worthlessness?

Thank you, and I get the thing about boundaries. But I’m really wounded because she said things to me that hurt me. I never thought that someone who I held in such high esteem could possibly hurt me. She told me things like “who knows where we’d be” when I asked if this would have happened if I had kept my mouth shut. She told me other things. I’m too sad to get into it right now but there is a link about a story that I wrote about what happened if you want to bury through some old posts or comments of mine.

But the thing is, she violated my boundaries. I’m getting tired of people defending a therapist, and saying they need to do what they need to do, or asking me what I did wrong to have that happen. She violated my boundaries.

She used to text me at all hours of the day, she has a kitten I sent her a link to. She told me she wouldn’t go anywhere, and how deeply she cares about me. She would schedule sessions with me on Sundays if I needed. She made those boundaries loose, and then when I upset her? All of a sudden it’s about her boundaries now? Upsetting someone isn’t a reason for termination. Telling clients hurtful things isn’t ok. I don’t believe she acted appropriately throughout any of this, but I adored her and she was helping to heal me. So she made some mistakes. I can’t make some? Why doesn’t the road go two ways. All I did was question her. I didn’t do a damn thing to hurt her or harm her or degrade her.

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