In 1984, after a year-long period of meditation and other explorations of consciousness, I became aware that my reality and I weren't separate. It was like this veil dropped. I couldn't help but notice that things I imagined intensely were happening, and very fast at that point. It was very scary. I've always had a tendency for anxiety, so realizing that I and my reality were this one thing, I felt a bit claustrophobic at first. I sort of felt like I had died and entered some other reality. It was a very anxious time.

After a few months of it, I someone gave me a few books called Seth Speaks and The Nature Of Personal Reality, both by Jane Roberts, channeling an entity called Seth. Her books started coming out in the 60's. As I read, lights started going on as the books gave me a language for what I was experiencing. Helping me to see that life was about creativity and love, and that I had woken up to this deeper process of creativity.

So I started to work with this level of creativity, creating my life with my imagination, emotional energy, and action. My life went in a whole new direction. This process is not about sitting back and letting everything just come to me and not doing anything to make it so. Life is action. Some things come magically, and some are the result of hard work.

I was creating stuff magically back when I was a young boy, but it was in the context of praying to God. When I prayed for things, it was highly visual prayer. And God often delivered. :)