I had been messing around with this girl who always wanted to date me but after a couple of messy ships, I didn’t really want to open up to anyone. But with her I could be myself. After sex we’d talk about anything. Joke. Watch shitty Youtube vids together. It fet like sex was how we’d breK the ice before actually hanging out. She understood me alot better than any other woman I’d previously been with. Eventually we started going out more. Going to get breakfast and things like that until she just stopped talking to me. At the time I didn’t get it. And that hurt. Why’d she leave? And not say good bye. But it was because she felt like I didn’t show her I valued her, and she was right. I never showed her how much she meant to me. I never told her how much I loved hanging with her. Eventually I find out she had started dating some guy. And seeing her with another guy pissed me off, but I got it. She was with somebody who probably gave her what I didn’t. After that I started being more...vulnerable with people. That’s something I’ve never really been. And it’s still difficult to be that way, but, I appreciate people that are in my life even more now.