I haven’t had friends since I was 13. I’m now 21 and I still have no friends. And when I say I have no friends I mean I literally do not have a single friend. At first I didn’t mind because I was very depressed and it allowed me to not have to worry about anyone and I didn’t have to make any effort in a friendship. But the longer it went on, the more lonely I became. I see pictures of people hanging out with their friends and I wish I could have people to hang out with. And this only worsened the depression because I had no one to talk to. No one that cared or loved me and I was truly alone. I had posted on r/depression several times from different accounts about this and people offered ways to make friends. None of it was ever that realistic but maybe subconsciously I just didn’t really have a desire to make friends. Maybe I was lazy. I’m not sure but I still have no friends. I’ve had two jobs, met people from both jobs but never formed a friendship. Never left my house to hang out with someone. Never had someone come over to hang out. It’s lonely and depressing and I virtually have no self worth because it just makes me think something must be wrong with me. Either physically or mentally, there must be a reason as to why no one likes me. But again, I think it’s probably more so due to me subconsciously not putting the effort in. So maybe I don’t even want friends and I’m just complaining. Anyways, it makes a person lonely, question themselves or their lives, causes depression to worsen. At least in my case.