I’d definitely kill myself. Having to get braces again, deal with acne, 15 more years of depression and insomnia, stomach problems, anxiety, all the sexual harassment, all my pets dying again, my grandma getting dementia and dying again, being stuck in a cult for another 4 years, being freshly kicked off the baseball team for being a girl, having to go through college again, making friends for the first time in my life only to move out of the state a year later with my family, racking up thousands in medical debt that kills my credit and ensures I can never get an apartment without a cosigner...yeah, no thank you. I’ve been through far too much in my life to have to do it all again. I’m happy being here now.