I try to stay as safe as I can. I’ve always abhorred violence of any kind but more and more it seems to be the only way left to protect the things I love. Every time someone chooses to shoot up a bunch of people it makes me realize that my world is getting colder, darker, and less promising. Honestly the inner turmoil is deeply unsettling to me and I often consider leaving. I’ve never really liked to consider myself as a US citizen because I don’t like being identified with the easily offended and greatly opinionated people who seems to be all around me. There is so much unrest and hatred all over the place. So much selfishness and self-righteousness. Only the smaller communities seem to have what once made America good. I’m in love with the land and the wildlife but many of the people are just terrible. Of course there are still many good and kind people but they all seem to be an endangered species that will be gone in the next generation or two. My family is the only reason I’m still here. My country has strayed too far from its roots and the ideals it was founded on. I wouldn’t be surprised if it collapses by the end of the century.