I hear you OP.

I'm really sorry about that.

I know you may already be doing this and it may not even solve any problems and you've probab heard this a billion times, but -- as it seems like this is very important -- if you could bring yourself to and throw yourself in deep, my recommendation would be to work out a ton and get ripped while changing your diet and cutting out all the junk food.

The time you spend researching now you could shift over to reading exercise and health books.

I might also recommend reading dating for men types of books as they can in some cases just help explain things to practice or point out ways it's easy to come off creepy.

I'd also recommend the obvious stuff -- good clean hygiene and dressing well, buying new clothes -- getting good pictures done for profiles.

I know all of that is super super super hard. Probably not even practical. Especially when you're depressed or don't have much time.

Hell, I don't even do it so I'm a hypocrite.

I know that dedicating yourself to all that would take time and it would be painful and I know in the end you can only improve appearance so much.

To be honest, I've pretty much given up myself.

I'm average looking -- maybe even a little above average perhaps -- and a guy.

And I've tried like hell to get a girlfriend over the years.

I had one for a little while but well she left pretty quick for someone else which hurt.

I don't really know what to say to be honest.

I'm really sorry and that sucks. Life sucks. I wish things were better and not so hard. I hope things get better for you.