What is it like being you?

I hate school and I stopped going ages ago but when I did go I always got looked and asked if I was okay because I looked “depressed” or “sick”but I obviously said I was fine. Class was hard to keep up because I was always tired or couldn’t be fucked to do anything. People started to get involved and had to trick me into going to places like saying we were just going to “talk” when really they were taking me to the doctors. I refused to do anything because I knew something was wrong with me , I walked out of the room every time when they said I needed help. I just raged at my teacher and just disrespected her in anyway. I never was ever in my class because they locked my in a room all day with work I had to do but never did. They said I deserved to be there and I will stay there until I changed. I got a second chance but didn’t change and I got worse and moved class.I grew to care less and ditch school or go sometimes. People would come to my door and take me to school until I just stoped answering the door and not going at all , even though I got yelled at and threatened every morning by my mum. She stopped eventually because she knew I wouldn’t listen. Now people come to my house everyday trying to get me to school or make me happier. I have got less social and just sit there while they talk , I have got more angry but it’s not even me controlling myself it’s basically like seeing someone ruin my life. My mum is no help either she says she cares but then threatens that she will send me to a mental hospital because she saw the marks on my body and that I’m too skinny. I have no privacy because she legit tells everyone about me. She also says I’m probably going to get taken away. My sister says she cares but tells me to starve to death or some fucked up shit. I recently tried to go to school because I got another class changed but regretted going and just gapped it. I tell everyone to fuck off but the same reply every time is “if you go to school we will” . Nobody is understanding at all and how bad my anxiety is. Sometimes I worry because I’m only 12 and need the education but most the time I don’t even think I will make it 13

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