What was losing your virginity like? NSFW

I kinda got peer pressured into losing my virginity. There was a really pretty girl who had a crush on me when I was in high school. Which would've been awesome if I wasn't gay and still in the closet. As a closeted gay teen, I was fairly introverted and my friends attributed my never perusing girls as just being "shy." My mates, just trying to give me hand, told the girl to approach me and ask me out. When she did I couldn't think of a good reason not too date her that wouldn't end with me outing myself, so I agreed to go out with her. On our second date I drop her off at her place and she invites me inside where we start making out. Now I had kissed girls before so this was nothing special, however what I wasn't ready was her to start putting her hands on my crotch. Immediately, I can feel myself start sweating and internally I am just freaking out. I really don't want to do this but at the same time I don't want anyone to figure out I'm gay so I let her keep going and start awkwardly touching her butt and boobs. A couple of minutes in she starts undoing my pants and I realize that this is going to happen. At this point, I think I'm too invested in this and figure stopping now would be too suspect and, considering I had no intention of telling her the real reason I didn't want to do this, I was afraid any excuse I gave her was going to hurt her feelings, so I soldiered on.

It should be known that in high school I prided myself in my self control. I was a student athlete and when you're in a situation like I was you learn to live in "survival mode." Eyes forward in the locker room and don't let anything distract you on the field. Always in the corner of my mind was a voice telling me to ignore all the other guys because I knew I'd pop a boner the second I let my horny repressed teenage mind start to wander. The next few minutes at the girls house were like that but in reverse.

It took all my concentration and imagination to access my internal spank bank to not just get a boner, but keep it. She was the first person other than myself to touch my dick and I was trying to think of nearly anyone except her. Things progressed and she produced a condom and handed it to me. I put it on as she turned got into position. The whole time putting that condom on felt like the trek to the top of your first roller coaster. Absolutely terrifying and wanting nothing more than to get off because you feel like you just made a terrible mistake. When I got the condom on, I gripped her waist and just barely got my first pump in when we heard the front door of the house open.

I'm both equal parts thrilled and scared shitless. I'm so happy that we had an excuse to stop but at the same time I think I'm about to die because her had will not hesitate to kill me. We scramble to get dressed and sneak out of the house. I later learned that the person who walked into the house was my vice principal, who was good friends with the girls dad and had a key to the house. I ended the relationship shortly after claiming it wasn't working and came out about a year and a half later.

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