Years ago and I wanted to leave her but I had a love for her in a non-committal way and she was in very dark times. I advocated some hobbies, including fitness which she still sticks to today and looks sexy as fuck. She’s getting married now. But she somewhat recently told me that she attempted suicide with pills when I broke it off with her. I think she’s still in love with me, she complained she felt nothing during sex with her fiancé. I didn’t advise her on my opinion.

The whole suicide thing fucked me up though for a long time, esp when she told me during very stressful times. I destroyed two potentially connections with girls I felt there was something there. It fucked me up along with everything else in my life.