Fuck man, yesterday my girlfriend and I were having a fight.

After moving in together, shit got tough for me and the past two months I've been borderline broke, she's had to front a lot of the costs for everything and I knew it was getting to her and effecting our relationship.

She told me 'we need to talk later' and I knew exactly where it was going because I KNOW she's not happy with me recently. The past two weeks I've been looking for a solution so I don't sabotage this relationship, so I reached out to some mates and one of them said I can stay with him for as long as I need. Now this works well because where we currently live is paid for by her company, so there's no rent or outrageous bills that she would be left to cover by herself.

So anyways, I went out thought about my options and when I got home I told her I was thinking of moving out till I get my shit together because I don't want to drive her away, this caused a huge uproar and an argument ensued where she basically told me everything I already knew (that she was pissed and what not.)

During the argument she said some of the most hurtful shit I've ever had said to me, she told me she can't talk to her friends about it because 'they will think you're a loser and ask me why the fuck I'm with you', 'I don't know if I love you any more', 'I just don't want to be with you.' Every fucking word that came out of her mouth was like 1000 daggers in the chest, but I knew she didn't mean any of the things she said.

I don't really know where I'm going with this, but if anyone is reading this please don't tell someone you don't love them if you don't actually mean it, it hurts.