I was told repeatedly that I was no good. I remember my father yelled at me one day for not being able to tie a knot properly. I was not allowed to go out at night, missed out on a lot of things. Never gave me money for anything, I remember asking my friends to lend me money for gas.

I must be around 18. It was so frequent and so torturesome that I left home as soon as I graduated. I wanted to go for higher studies but did not. Took the first job I got and left. Faced a lot of issues at work but going back was not an option for me.

Only later I realised that you can't leave a toxic parent behind. They live in your head, travel with you all the time. No matter where I'd go, my toxic home would come following.

And I couldn't cut ties with him cause he's grown old. And every now and then when I visit I get to hear things like,"your cousin got selected in this or that firm, has a good salary, why don't you try for a better paying job", and "why can't you marry, why can't you settle down"

And I don't know what to say to that. My mother died when I was 14, she suffered from anxiety for a good portion of her life because of the abusive person she married. They had 5 kids and not one of them is happy. We are all a product of his upbringing.

You know what hurts most, that you can't reach closure with a parent like that. They are never going to change, they will not stop judging you. And soon they'll grow old and you'll have to take care of them.

I had a bad childhood and as a result I suffer from mental issues now. Couldn't speak about it to people I know. My siblings, we keep fighting among ourselves over small issues.

Talking to a counsellor never helped me. Writing this here in solidarity. As someone said in one of the comments that some people shouldn't be allowed to reproduce, I agree to that.