I think I'm bisexual. Not sure though. I watched a solo male porn video once and it was great, but I don't think that can determine if I'm bi or not.

I can't really make sure by trying gay sex because I'm 17, fat, ugly, and a virgin, so "exploring" is out of the question.

My sister just came out to my brother, my old sister, and I recently and told us not to tell our parents. She said she would personally tell them, but has yet to say anything. She is afraid of them, specifically my dad, disapproving, though my mom would probably be ok with it.

I don't want to come out yet because I'm still not sure if I really am bi or if it was just a "spur of the moment" type of situation. I really did enjoy the video, but that doesn't seem to make me 100% certain if my feelings are true, because, like I said, I'm a kissless, overweight, ugly virgin.

I'm also afraid that my parents will disapprove. My dad is not a fan of gays or lesbians. My mother wouldn't really mind if my sister came out to her, but if I were to come out, I'd probably get sent to therapy or something. My parents already don't believe that I have depression, saying that it's all just "in my head".

i feel a little better, i guess