I seriously hurt my back, people kept telling me to man up and stop being lazy. Lost friends and family one after another because I’m too young to have a serious injury or illness. After a year of this back and forth with no one willing to lift a finger to help, I’m permanently disabled because of spinal cord and nerve damage. Everyone I’ve talked to still tells me to stop being lazy or how starving Africans are worse off than me so I’m actually the lucky one. Ended up hiring a lawyer to get disability, I had so much medical proof they had to wheel in the files on multiple carts.

No one takes my disability insurance, I’ve called, visited, harassed, and tried for years. I get barely enough money to live or eat but not enough money to do anything else. Every day I sit alone in my broken down house wondering if today is the day I should end my hellish life. I wish I’d spent some of my money I use to have to buy a gun. I’d immediately shoot myself in the head, multiple times if possible. Anytime I still try to talk to someone close (immediate family or family friend) they make snide comments about how I’m living a life of paradise not having to work, it’s like I’m on constant vacation! Ignoring the mind breaking and unending pain from my nerve damage or the soul crushing poverty.