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What do you over think about?
Far too many things. Both rational and not rational.
Scenarios that happened years ago that I replay. The "what could I have done differently in high school", "fuck, I hated getting bullied." That kind of stuff...I am 43...
Projects. Always something churning. I have an app I am trying to build that I am doing everything for. Trying to release it in a very niche market and weighing the pros and cons of starting a business. Plus the app design, workflow and trying to make it all make sense.
My mother is in her early 70s and is slowly falling apart but doesn't want to go to a "home" (I live with her currently in a 2 family home). My SO is trying to get a new job in a new area which means we have to move. With my mom in tow....Which is stressful for obvious reasons. She (mom) is a hoarder but doesn't see it. "We might need that some day".
I am half-blind (one functioning eye) and have also never had steady vision (nystagmus) so I can't drive nor can I do anything that is detail oriented (at least at a speed that a business would find acceptable).
My teeth suck so I am dreading a long coming dentist visit.
My SO is the most amazing damn woman on the planet and I don't deserve her and constantly wonder why the hell she is with me.
Even though I don't want kids I also feel guilty for not furthering my family line. My mom says that it's ok but I still feel guilty bad about it.
Everything I do I can never seem to finish to my satisfaction. Pisses me off far too often.