The fact that she told me "I never loved you" despite the fact that we were engaged. Being blocked on IG and not having heard from her in nearly two years. Being falsely accused of a number of things, including the very things she was doing herself. Losing a 10 year friend/lover. The fact that I am 40 yrs old now, and that was my only time being in love. I'm finding it hard to imagine feeling that in love with someone again, especially considering our lengthy history of friendship/relationship. Also the regret....the regret of wishing I could have done so many things differently. I wasn't perfect, but unlike her, I was able to admit any faults and hold myself accountable. Sigh...