Dropped out of college and had to move back home. I had a promising future, but the weight of the world hit me hard and I began to struggle in school and financially. When I got back home I was met with a lot of "where did we go wrong"s and "you let your future slip away"s. I fell into a depressive state where all I did was lie in bed and think about what my life could have been and all the things I did wrong. All the wrong choices I made and all the opportunities I missed. It felt like I was suffocating. Like I was surrounded by darkness and there was nothing I could do to change anything. My life was already ruined. No one ever told me it would be ok. No one ever told me there would be more opportunities. Even being 21 years old at the time, I felt as though my life was almost over and there was no time to start again. I got a job working for almost minimum wage and being customer service I had to put up a front. I was good at that by that then. No one knew how empty and lonely I was. I had no friends. No one I could talk to. And nowhere I could breathe and let out my emotions and decompress. So it kept building. I started cutting myself. I was desperate for any kind of feeling. I heard this helped so I tried it. It didn't help. But I couldn't stop. I stopped when I went too deep and almost passed out during my lunch break at work. I wore long sleeves though so no one knew. I got home one night and opened YouTube and the song Chasing Ghosts by The Amity Affliction was in my recommend videos. That song, that album, and that band I do believe saved my life. All I could do was cry. I was probably a few days from taking my own life and for weeks I had been planning it. That song had no business being on my recommended for you playlist, but if it hadn't been I would not be here writing this.

TL;DR. Albums Chasing Ghosts and Let the Ocean Take Me-The Amity Affliction.