Abusive relationship.

I dabbled with drugs in my earlier years of high school (just alcohol and weed) but nothing really appealed to me. I was the kid that didn't inhale, because I wanted to fit in but didn't like feeling stoned.

When I started dating my ex in my senior year, that was the first time I felt like I needed something to numb myself. It started with weed but quickly escalated to painkillers and so on.

It sounds entitled and ridiculous, but I felt like I didn't really have the type of life that would lead one to drug abuse. I know that is a stupid thing to say and that drug use can impact anyone, but hopefully someone understands where I'm coming from.. I believe if I had never met that man, I would have never struggled with addiction (but who really knows... maybe it was in my personality from the start).

It's crazy because even years after he was out of my life, addiction is the single thing that impacted me the most.

So kids, don't stay in toxic relationships and stay the hell away from hard drugs.