Yes you should have hope. You should always have hope that your life will become better day after day. But you also have to invest something into your hope. It's not fair to think that your life will get any better than it is now if you don't change something.

I've gotta be honest your last paragraph hit me so hard and so perfectly portrayed my life one year ago. I broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years, lost my dog 3 months later, and got laid off just before thanksgiving. Reading your post just brought back all the memories of last year.

I'm not good at giving advice or really talking to strangers in general but I can at least tell you some things that helped.

The gym is number one. Going to the gym every day made me feel like I was at least doing something productive. I felt better. It also gave me the energy I never knew I could have.

I cleaned my apartment. This sounds dumb I'm sure. But I live with two friends and we used to live like children. Our apartment was always disgusting. So i cleaned the entire apartment top to bottom kept it that way. I really think coming home to a clean apartment and waking up in a clean, organized room really makes you feel better about your life.

Nature hikes. I'm lucky enough to live around a few scenic nature areas. I always though of meditation as boring. I don't feel like sitting somewhere and thinking, I don't have that kind of attention span. But I do enjoy nature and I can think and walk so why not hike and meditate?

I hope any of this helps or is even relatable. This is my first post to this subreddit, but like I said your post jumped out at me. Good luck friend.