What’s the most personal thing you’re willing to share with us?

I have been dealing with PTSD flashbacks from moving stress and it's like this traumatized person takes over my life and just ruins everything I work so hard for. I've said very hurtful things to my husband in these episodes, so far as asking for a divorce. I love my husband, but I feel so powerless when these episodes happen. I also feel bad saying sorry because it's a mental illness episode and if I had an asthma attack or something similar, I wouldn't say sorry for being sick. I'm so sad about the whole thing. I haven't had money or time or resources for therapy, even though I badly need it. I've been doing it on my own from books, but it feels like trying to teach myself quantum physics or something. I cry a lot. I just want life to go back to normal, before PTSD. Turns out when you're raised by cruel parents, like I was, you can develop complex PTSD. Literally PTSD from your own childhood. So yeah, it started when I was born. I'm so over it.

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