I grew up in a household where my parents fought daily over the smallest and stupidest shit. The yelling matches a constant would have me shaking in a corner in my younger years, it never got any better but I finally got out of the situation.
I'm 24 now, and every day I see more of my father in myself and it scares me. I've had a few throw away relationships, mostly kids being kids and nothing ever long lasting or serious in any way.
I found out my father had a pretty severe mental illness and that was the reasoning behind it, and I've started to see similarities of said illness in me. I'm scared I'll end up being like him, I have his temper though I hold it in.
I don't want to treat anyone the way he treated me or my mother so I hide. When I fall for someone or get close to them I tend to self sabotage and throw it away before I burden them with myself.
Unhealthy probably.