Since this is old enough that no one will probably see this...
I used to be in the Army and I feel like it fucked my life up. I came out jaded, disillusioned, and with more than a few mental health issues. It's been 6 years since I got out and it still impacts my day-to-day. Between that, my desire to not have kids, and just growing older, I feel like i'm never going to get in to a serious relationship, get married, and all that happy stuff and i've just kind of accepted that. Because I get it. Who wants damaged goods, right?
I've been pursuing a dream that I had since I was a kid (wrestling) but i'm in my mid-thirties and already had major back surgery (due to the Army) so, at my core, I really feel like i'm just fooling myself by trying to make it and that i'm just setting myself up for failure and I'll likely have to quit. I tell myself that if I grind hard enough it'll work out but I can't shake the feeling that it's all just fooling myself. But if I give up, I know it's nothing but a shitty desk job and just going from paycheck to paycheck until I fucking die.
idk. I imagine i'll wind up as a bitter old hermit in the woods in the future.