What’s something you’re willing to admit to the people here on Reddit but not to most people in real life?

Since this is old enough that no one will probably see this...

I used to be in the Army and I feel like it fucked my life up. I came out jaded, disillusioned, and with more than a few mental health issues. It's been 6 years since I got out and it still impacts my day-to-day. Between that, my desire to not have kids, and just growing older, I feel like i'm never going to get in to a serious relationship, get married, and all that happy stuff and i've just kind of accepted that. Because I get it. Who wants damaged goods, right?

I've been pursuing a dream that I had since I was a kid (wrestling) but i'm in my mid-thirties and already had major back surgery (due to the Army) so, at my core, I really feel like i'm just fooling myself by trying to make it and that i'm just setting myself up for failure and I'll likely have to quit. I tell myself that if I grind hard enough it'll work out but I can't shake the feeling that it's all just fooling myself. But if I give up, I know it's nothing but a shitty desk job and just going from paycheck to paycheck until I fucking die.

idk. I imagine i'll wind up as a bitter old hermit in the woods in the future.

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