This is something I don’t share with most people and actually unsure whether I’ve told anyone, certainly not recently anyway.

My dad was abused when he was around five years old and it affected him for his whole life until recently when he got professional help. However before he saw someone about it he was quite unhinged sometimes.

I was about 9/10 at the time and I woke up during the night due to my dad and his girlfriend (now ex) having an argument, there’s a lot of details that I don’t need to go over but I remember to this day, hearing him say “what if I get the urges to go in his room (mine) and do the same thing”

No one knows I heard that, nothing even remotely close to that ever happened again and was the last it was mentioned that night but it still disturbs me thinking of it. I’ve always thought he used that as a bargaining chip with his girlfriend to get her to stay as she left him shortly after but I don’t know.