When I was a child I had a cousin who was three years older than me. I am an only child, so I looked up to him like an older brother. He wasn't very nice to me. He used to tease me whenever his friends were around and they would beat me up too. He didn't have a father in his life, so whenever I would tell on him for hurting me, he would get away with it. So I eventually stopped telling. One time we were in a bath together when we were pretty young. Inwas maybe 6 and he was 9. He convinced me to urinate in an empty shampoo cap and drink it.

A few years later he moved across the street from me. I was excited to have an older brother to play with every day. We played together pretty much every day. He introduced me to a lot of video games and movies. I was in fifth grade at the time he moved across from me and he was an 8th grader.

One night I was telling him about a girl I had a crush on and he started teasing me over it. I jumped on top of him and started hitting him because i was getting mad. He leaned up and kissed me on the lips. A lot of that year I've blocked out, but that slowly escalated into other things, like handjobs, blowjobs, and anal sex.

I was scared confused and anxious a lot during that time, but for some reason I kept going over to his house after school. I believe it went on for a year before he moved away.

I'd seen him maybe once or twice after that, because I tried my hardest to avoid him.