I cheated at the very beginning of our relationship (maybe a month or two in). The relationship was wonky (a lot of changes coming, friend group stuff, college, etc) and truth be told, neither one of us thought it’d last past that summer anyway. We talked about it extensively: “why?” “What would you do if you were in my shoes?” etc etc
God knows how or why but she forgave me. It’s been 4 years and we are, by far, the best couple I know. We’re constantly working on communication. We compromise. We make time for each other despite hectic schedules.
I’ve mostly forgiven myself. Sometimes I still feel like a POS. Like right now— the only reason i even came looking at this subreddit. I’ve never given her a reason to doubt me or my love for her since and I try to show it in different ways.