Best friend that I fell in love with. We did everything together and were super touchy feeling with one another. Everyone told me he liked me back

Well, I confessed, and he friendzoned me, but we kept acting the exact same— like we were dating. Then two weeks later he got a girlfriend, one of my childhood best friends. Things between us got a little cold but we still kept going.

Come three months later, they’ve broken up. We go to a party together, then step outside for air. Once we’re outside we chit chat for a bit and then he starts crying and tells me that he feels like an awful human being. Tells me that the reason he didn’t date me was because his friends didn’t like me, but he was too much of a coward to go for it or cut things off with me. I felt totally detached throughout the whole conversation and, after I left, I honestly just didn’t care anymore.

He kept messaging me saying that he felt awful, that he couldn’t stop crying, that he was worried I would leave him when I went to college. I did my best, but eventually it just became too much. He then told me I was a terrible person for not caring about him anymore. I decided to cut him off and deleted him from everything.

And cold as it sounds, it was the best decision I’ve made in high school. Gone were my panic attacks and anxiety. Gone were the angsty songs I wrote about him and the sad journal entries.

Anyways, sorry for how long this is. Sometimes you just need to literally let go.