What is the saddest detail about your life that no one knows?

My mom is dying to cancer slowly, and it's difficult to see her slip away a little more everyday. She's lost the ability to speak or express herself and it breaks my heart. She was so well read and knowledgeable and to see her struggle to remember my name.. my heart just shatters.

I've spent the last 18 months taking care of her to unburden my father and I've lost all my friends. I was always the life of the party everywhere I went... but I've never felt so invisible. I sit here struggling everyday being strong for both my parents while my siblings disappear. I'm the youngest and I feel like I have to hold the biggest burden. I know life isn't fair, but I think the saddest thing for me to admit is that I feel like I am holding my parents and my family up together while I crumble apart. I've never wanted this situation to define me, but somehow it does. My finances are in shambles and all I want is to find a job, but every time I've gotten hired or an interview I've had to drop it all to go to the emergency room because of cancer. It's so hard to move forward with myself but also to be there for my mom and dad.

I just wish there was a solution or something that I could've done differently so we didn't end up in this situation. It's difficult to wake up in the morning, it's difficult to sleep at night. But everyday I am there with a smile ready to take on another day. I just wish someone would scratch slightly below the surface of that smile and asked me how I'm doing hehe.

Also I took the time to listen to your song, it's awesome that you've turned something bad into something palatable, I hope you continue with your music :)

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