I seriously don't even know where to start. (I'm taking this down in half an hour)

I guess for starters, growing up. I'm 15. Everyday I'm getting closer and closer to becoming an adult, and I'm dreading every part of it. One of the most terrifying things to me already is driving. I hate every second of it. I only just got my permit. The freedom of it sounds amazing, don't get me wrong, but the doesn't make me feel better about actually driving. The amount of stress it puts me under behind that steering wheel is too much. Anything could happen. And while I'm generally a calm person, my mind is always whirring filled with stressful and anxious thoughts. There's only so much I can do to distract it. The things I used to do all day are becoming less and less fun. I can only imagine how much worse it'll be once I have more responsibilities. For instance, a job. Every kid dreams of no responsibilities, and I've been fortunate enough to avoid having daily/weekly chores for a long time now. Since I've gotten a new house, I've gladly helped out with many things, but to a certain extent I start wishing I wasn't doing anything. I also avoid as much as I can when it comes to schoolwork(dont worry, I still get mostly A's). I'm textbook smart, so I rely on that for assignments. I'm usually one of the smartest people in the room wherever I am. But Anytime I know I have to put a lot of effort into a project, I can never bring myself to do much of it. I don't even know how that will translate to me having a real job. Call me lazy if you want, I dont care. Its just how I grew up.

The constant state of fear, stress, and anxiety I'm in can't possibly result in anything going good for me once I'm an adult. I dont even know if I touched a lot of what I wanted to say, and I didn't even mean for it to be this long. It takes a lot for me to say this, so I appreciate if you got this far.