So, I have a question. I have a friend I've known since kindergarten who is autistic. I'm also autistic but we each have different issues. She is horrible with social cues (I hate being wrong or not getting what I want. Still working on dealing with that) and is the most obnoxious person ever. She can't understand that nobody wants her to follow them around reading from her book outloud. She doesn't get that if you have a room of people who sigh and visibly get annoyed or glare at you when you talk, you might want to shut up. She exaggerates feelings by shouting and being over dramatic. She cries if you tell her she's annoying or ask her to stop-but the moment you say "nevermind" she's all happy again. She thinks everyone is her friend and she doesn't get how it's possible that she's annoying. She's also the type of kid who will call out durring a math problem about sharks attacking people and tell the teacher that sharks wouldn't attack that many people, saying this with a smug face because she honestly thinks she's smart and that nobody else knows that. Not saying she's dumb, but she's not especially smart. She also can't tell when someone is obviously trying ro get a reaction from her and will challenge them until you pull her away.

I kmow I should be more tolerant because I understand how much autism sucks, but I can't stand her. Maybe it's worse this year because every single class the teachers put me next to her.

So is it wrong of me to complain about her behind her back? Honest question here. She's the only person I talk bad about, and I've said everything to her face as well as to my friend. I only really complain to a few friends who share these feelings (though they don't know she's autistic, or that I am for that matter). I'm still nice (most of the time) to her because it's easier than arguing with her and listening to her cry and apologize and say that she's sorry but never meaning it or doing anything to be less annoying.

So what's your honest opinion? Is this wrong of me? Am I beimg unfair and mean? I'd like to think it's just venting but I dunno.