Yep. I'm 1 right now for sure. Haven't gone off to college yet because I feel like I don't know any of the shit I should know, and I don't even know where to begin figuring it out or living as a semi-functional adult. Consistently fear moving out on my own, as badly as I want and need to, because I know I'm at risk for spiraling right into 2 once I do. Addictive personality, sheltered upbringing, never faced real consequences before, then add on some depression (carelessness for my own health and safety), social anxiety, and peer pressure, and oh boy, do I become a tragedy waiting to happen.

More likely I'll just end up being as much of a reclusive college kid as I was a reclusive high school kid, awkwardly leaving parties early, and googling a bunch of mundane shit that everyone else just magically "knows". But that doesn't shake the fear that once I get into a dorm, and my parents leave me alone there, some part of me is just going to realize I can truly do whatever the fuck I want for once in my life and completely lose it. It sounds cliche, but it's actually terrifying.