What is something that has been eating you up inside and you just need to get off your chest anonymously?

well lately I've been feeling like life is just empty, because I can't see the bigger meaning of it

just a few months ago I would have referenced the likes of Camus, that the meaning of life is whatever you do that prevents you from commiting suicide, but l just feel like there's more to it than that, so I've tried to think about, but I have yet to find a conclusion

is the meaning of life to understand the universe: Altough I think science is really interesting, and amazing, I still don't feel like my life has more meaning because I know how an atom works, or why some things emit light

Is it then the search itself that is the meaning of life?: well if that's the case, then wouldn't that mean the the meaning of life didn't really exist? because then we would just be searching for something we can't find, that to me is just as pointless as trying to chase the wind

is the meaning of life just to reproduce and spread your genes/DNA?: Well you can argue that this is biologically the meaning of life, but if were just that simple why then have we evolved the ability to even question it?

I've even tried to ask god for help, even though I'm not a "believer" (I do believe there's some form of "godly" power to universe, but it could be god, a giant cosmic consciousness or a 40 feet tall divine lobster, the point is I can't know what it is for sure) but nothing has seemed to work. To some of you this all may seem stupid, and I understand that, but it's just a feeling I can't seem to get rid of.

TL;DR: I feel like life is just empty, And I struggle to find the meaning behind it all.

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