You know that empty feeling you get sometimes after something ends? I feel like that all the time, no matter what I'm doing. I enjoy movies and TV and things but a minute after it's over the feeling is back. Even every day things, like work or going to the store for groceries gives me that feeling.

I have no one to talk to about anything and I feel alone 100% of the time. I have no friends, and working grave yard shifts at a call center brings the people I talk to to a zero. I didn't have the social skills to talk to people in school and it's carried over to adulthood.

I hate my job but can't complain about it to family because they've got harder jobs and I sit at a computer all day. I can't complain I'm tired because my Mom worked 20 years on a night shift and mine doesn't compare.

My brothers share the slightest overlap of interests with me, and listen to me talk about some of the things I like but whether they mind or not my inner thoughts tell me I'm annoying them so I stop myself after a minute if I even bring it up at all. This carries over to whenever I talk about anything online to strangers.

I'd like to lay in bed all day reading, but I feel like a piece of shit doing so, and then when I get out of bed to do anything I have that empty feeling again.

I don't know man, I just wish I could be happy.