I guess I miss the lifestyle of my late teens and early 20's. I'm still friends with a lot of the same people but being in my mid thirties now, it's almost a special event with all of the complexities of life to get a lot of us together and some of us have drifted apart.

Even though financially I'm well off now, I kind of miss the days when we could get together and play DND and halo and each of us might be poor but we could pool together enough money for a dime bag and a pizza and have a great night. It was shitty at the time living paycheck to paycheck in a small apartment but as long as you could pay the bills and could get by on pizza and ramen, fuck it. Nights were you and a couple of friends and bored at 10 and contact other friend groups to see what's going on and by 1130, you and tons of people a degree or two away from you and your friends were all partying somewhere. That shit would be impossible now.

I don't know life feels very boring and ordered now with responsibilities and family and such. Also I'm sure these sorts of things would be boring to me as a grown-up now too so it could never have the same magic if I could do it now, but man living carefree of what you did after you clocked out of work or left school was awesome. Now it feels like I'm in maintenance mode for everything else when I leave work.