What strange behaviour did you pick up out of habit as a result of a job?

I initially sought treatment for the Things I thought was wrong with me physically, I have since been diagnosed with delusional depression paranoid personality disorder borderline personality disorder tested for autism and finally diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder with lithium transforming my mood with the other diagnosises being incorrect.

However I still have cognitive dissonance in that when depressed those thoughts all come back and sometimes if it is talked about it sucks me back down the rabbit hole but when happy those thoughts all go away.

I have 2 world views which are incompatible with each other and are ties to my mood each one seems real

So i just have to block out the negative which has made me isolate myself.

How on earth am I meant to tell if my thoughts are accurate or not ? Should I take my illness diagnosis as my thoughts are not accurate ? Nobody never said it they were or were not.

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