My running theory is that everything is math.
So, my genes, my DNA, all of what I am: math. I'm just an equation really.
Now, if the universe is forever or always will be, or even if it will exist for billions and billions of years more, rng has to come up me again someday.
I've also wondered if consciousness is just projected inward from an outside reality. So much of this universe makes no sense:
When presented with the numbers, based on his own papers, than show a singularity (a black hole) is possible, Einstein said that it could only exist on paper, not in reality. Yet, it exists.
(a) He also said reality was an illusion.
Quantum Entanglement. How does it even make sense? Say two entangled particles are traveling at 100 miles an hour trillions of light-years apart. For whatever reason, one of them slows to 99. The other will also slow because of being entangled with the one doing the slowing, but there is NO REASON for that to happen. "An object in motion stays in motion unless acted upon by an outside force" except not always?
Quantum particles will behave differently depending on if they are being observed or not.
I mention these things only to show that there is so, so much we don't know and way never understand. So much of what we think we know way just be "kinda" right. But one thing is for sure, there is much, much, more to all this than there seems to be. Definitely not a God in the sense of theology, but there is no way to look at reality and not be suspicious of it. Death is just gonna be part of the adventure.
Whew what a wall of text, fuck.
tl;dr
The universe and reality are some crazy shit.