Oh my. I have no idea if you're a target for sure, but I DO believe that you are terrified and that you feel you definitely are. I wish I had better advice, I hope someone with a lot more knowledge on these things has more to offer you for advice. I would suggest though that you do see a therapist to discuss this with. You dont have to go on any kind of medication, but you need someone removed from this situation to talk about this with. I am not suggesting you are "crazy" for lack of a better word, I just think it may be helpful to speak with someone. Write everything down, absolutely everything that you remember, record dates and times where you feel threatened or concerned. Tell the person you reach out to about your concerns about medication, the reasons you don't want it. Keep detailed notes, take photos.
I'm very worried about you. I would at least start off with a counselor and see what kind of advice you receive, also to have on record everything you're worried about.
Please be careful.